This selection, chosen by guest editor Joey Gould, is from The Autobiography of Rain by Lana Hechtman Ayers (Fernwood Press 2024).
Of the Many Things I Was Taught Not to Do
after Annie Lighthart
I was taught not to repeat anything I saw.
Not the river of night and its luminescent- eyed fish paddling above me.
Not the fir-covered hills like soldiers with rifles at ease, finally retreating.
Not the tufted skirts of sky, their billowy crinoline rustling of maple tree leaves.
Not the waters of the Yaquina, its surface ripples like the footprints of pale ghosts.
I have lived in so many theaters of the mind and wanted to kiss and tell all the secret plotlines.
But my mother warned Loquacious girls go to hell.
I’m there anyway, so here’s what I know—
how mallard’s wings flap like urgent letters fluttering their way to you;
how yellow leaves flit in the breeze like the humble prayers of very young children;
how earthworms sing in the rain, a nearly silent song of loneliness;
and love, well, love is the color of the sky anytime you look up.
Cat mama, dog mama, sky-watcher, and former New Yorker Lana Hechtman Ayers earned an MFA in Poetry from New England College. She has authored 4 chapbooks, 9 full-length poetry collections, and has poems appearing in or forthcoming from The London Reader, Peregrine, One Art, and others. In her role as managing editor, she’s ushered 150 poetry collections into the world. Lana is a recovering coffee-obsessive whose favorite color is the swirl of van Gogh’s The Starry Night. From her home in Oregon on the unceded land of the Yaq’on people, on clear quiet nights she can hear the Pacific ocean whispering to the moon.
Joey Gould, who served as Sundress Academy for the Arts Spring 2024 Writer in Residence, wrote The Acute Avian Heart (2019, Lily Poetry Review) & Penitent > Arbiter (2022, Lily Poetry Review), along with transfinity (forthcoming from Lambhouse Books). Their recent work appears in Solstice, Memezine, and Defunkt Magazine’s Surreal Confessional Anthology. They write book reviews as Poetry Editor for Drunk Monkeys, and have also placed reviews in Glass: A Journal of Poetry and the Sundress blog.