Project Bookshelf: Alexandra Bautista

Since I was a baby, I’ve had the same bookshelf. It’s a bit of a mess. 

I’ve had to stack some books on top of the vertical ones because I can’t fit them in properly, and it takes me a good five minutes to find a book that is not in the first rows of my shelves. Finding a book often entails taking out the entire first row to see what’s in the back, only to put the books back because what I’m looking for isn’t there after all. My books spill out of the shelf itself, climbing like ivy to sit on top of the shelf. More can be found in a metal cart and in the bottom two shelves of a shelf in the living room because, as many books as my shelf can hold, I simply own too many.

So let’s take a tour of my bookshelf, for if the eyes are the windows to the soul, then my bookshelf is the window to my heart. 

The best place to start is actually not the shelf itself, I think. It’s hard to show the full thing, but I have a Google Spreadsheet titled “Alex’s Library” that holds an alphabetized list of all the books I own (333, to be exact). Above is a bit of that spreadsheet, but I do admit that I chose a section that had more “Completed” books than “Not Started,” just for the sake of portraying myself mildly positively on the internet.

The sections that I track are the status of the book (completed, in-progress, not started, DNF), the title and author of the book, as well as whether it belongs to a certain series, two genres that I feel best encompass the book, the book format (paperback, hardcover, Book of the Month, collector’s edition, movie tie-in, and manga), and the amount of pages in the book. Additionally, I also note the dates that I started and ended reading a book, my rating out of 5 stars, a link to a review that I’ve posted online, and a section for notes about the book. 

This spreadsheet is how I maintain a sense of control over the chaos of my books, and it makes it really easy to share with my friends when we want to buddy read a book. I take a lot of pride in my spreadsheet organization, honestly, so let me know if you’re also a spreadsheet fiend.

The books that are in the front are usually books that I have yet to read so that I can see them clearly and decide more quickly when I want to start a new book. A lot of these books are ones that have been published a bit more recently and thus were recently acquired. You might notice that some of those books have Goodwill stickers on the spine! A lot of my books (except for the Book of the Month editions) are found in Little Free Libraries, thrift stores, or used bookstores. A few books are bought from local bookstores around me and have been gathered throughout the years (I’m chronically late, and that includes reading popular books). 

It’s so hard to try to speak about my bookshelf since if I showed you every individual shelf (all two rows) and the books in other places, you’d be here reading for a very long time. So lastly, I’ll just show you my favorites collection.

This top shelf holds a bit of a collection of Casey McQuiston’s books. Red, White & Royal Blue is one of my favorite books ever. It holds a character that I see a lot of myself in and makes me believe that I, too, can one day live openly and happily. All of McQuiston’s books are the epitome of queer joy. Of course, that’s not to say that their characters don’t face challenges, but seeing these characters that are well-characterized enough to feel like real people receive happy endings in their stories makes me feel like real life can have happy moments as well. Some of my books are tabbed and annotated, and those I’ve turned around to show off to the world.

I also have Disorientation by Elaine Hsieh Chou, a book that was assigned for me to read in my first year at UCLA. It’s a biting satire of academia, particularly concerning the studies of Eastern cultures in Western settings. It grapples with the power dynamics of various interracial relationships between the main character and her partner, the Chinese poet who turns out to actually be white, as well as the lasting effects of Western colonization on modern cultures of the colonized.

Lastly, for my favorite books, I have three copies of Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein. The 1818 text was also required for me to read for a different UCLA English course, and I immediately fell in love with the story. I don’t often cry when reading books, but I sure did while reading this one. The essay I wrote for this book is one of my favorites from my degree, and I was so lucky to meet one of my best friends, Emma, in that class. The colorful spine of Frankenstein was a gift from her when she was visiting Denmark, and I cherish it as a symbol of where our friendship started.

Speaking of my English degree, I would be remiss not to mention the stack of bricks called Norton anthologies that I have. Despite the late nights those books gave me, I can’t bring myself to try to get rid of them. They’re filled with notes from when I first started out as an English major and remind me of where I started. Even when I moved, I took them with me. They’re not particularly my favorite, but I wouldn’t be where I am without them.


Photo of a Southeast Asian woman wearing glasses looking past the camera, smiling. In her hands are two books. She is wearing a white dress with a blue ribbon, a pearl necklace, and a blue and gold graduation sash. In the background are blurry bookshelves.

Alexandra Bautista (she/her) is an intern at Sundress Publications who hails from sunny California. Armed with an expensive piece of cardstock (her UCLA English degree) and way too much anxiety for one human body to hold, she approaches her lifelong love of reading with a perspective that is both analytical and emotional. Due to her background in tutoring high-school-aged and college-level students in writing, she believes that inside of everyone is a writer waiting to share their inner voice. Hopefully someday that will include her… whenever she gets over her writer’s block, that is. Which, likely, very possibly, maybe, might be never. 

Sundress Academy for the Arts Presents November Poetry Xfit

The Sundress Academy for the Arts is excited to present Poetry Xfit hosted by Shelby Hansen. This generative workshop event will take place on Sunday, November 29th, from 2 to 4 pm EST via Zoom. Join us at tiny.utk.edu/poetryxfit.

Poetry Xfit isn’t about throwing tires or heavy ropes, but the idea of confusing our muscles is the same. You will receive ideas, guidelines, and more as part of this generative workshop series in order to complete three poems in two hours. A new set of prompts will be provided after the writers have written collaboratively for thirty minutes. The goal is to create material that can be later modified and transformed into artwork rather than producing flawless final versions. The event is open to prose authors as well!

The theme for November’s Poetry Xfit is Experiment. For this month’s Xfit, Think about unexpected ways to work with white space, diction, shape, and language. Consider abandoning your comfort zones and experimenting with different ideas and forms—or lack thereof!

Shelby Hansen is a creative writer and self-proclaimed fantasy maestro hailing from the northern plains of Texas. She recently graduated from the University of Tennessee’s English program with a focus in Literature and Creative Writing, where she won several awards for her fiction. Her writing often focuses on womanhood, identity, and the reclamation of the self through a speculative lens. This is reflected in her debut novel, which she hopes to publish soon. When she is not writing or teaching today’s youth, she enjoys reading, crocheting, swimming, and spending time with her two cats, Stella and Gemma.

This event is brought to you in part by a grant provided by the Tennessee Arts Commission.

While this is a free event, donations can be made to the Sundress Academy for the Arts here.

We are excited to announce the launch of a new fundraising campaign centered on a simple idea: writers helping writers. Donors who make a gift of $100 or more to Sundress Publications can receive a poetry manuscript consultation as a thank-you for supporting our work. Learn more here on our website.

Sundress Academy for the Arts Presents The Poet Journalist: Intro to Docupoetics

The Sundress Academy for the Arts is excited to present “The Poet Journalist: Intro to Docupoetics” a workshop led by Mandy Shunnarah on Wednesday, November 11th from 6:00-7:30 PM EST. This event will be held over Zoom. Register today!

Poets are keen observers of the world and are always trying to make sense of what it means to be alive here, now, in this moment. Docupoetics, or documentary poetry, is one way to do that. By letting the latest headlines inspire poems and using journalistic skills––such as interviews, embedded citations, and historical, academic, and archival research––poets bring an urgent voice and a critical eye to the issues of the day. In this workshop, you’ll learn about the history of docupoetics, what poets are drawn to the subgenre and why, and you’ll be guided through a generative writing exercise to pen your own documentary poem.

While there is no fee to participate in this workshop, Mandy has requested that those who are able and appreciative make donations to Sundress! Or folks who to donate to Gaza, could give to The Sameer Project.

Mandy Shunnarah (they/them) is an Appalachian-Palestinian writer in Columbus, Ohio. Their essays, poetry, and short stories have been published in Electric Literature, The Rumpus, Black Warrior Review, and others. Their first book, Midwest Shreds: Skating Through America’s Heartland, was released in 2024, and their second book, We Had Mansions: Poems, was published by Diode Editions in 2025. Read more at mandyshunnarah.com.

We are excited to announce the launch of a new fundraising campaign centered on a simple idea: writers helping writers. Donors who make a gift of $100 or more to Sundress Publications can receive a poetry manuscript consultation as a thank-you for supporting our work. Learn more on our website.

Thank you to the Tennessee Arts Commission for their grant that supports this workshop.

The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian


This feature, chosen by Guest Editor Ty Raso, is from Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian (Perugia Press 2026).

MY FATHER WITH A SOLDIER IN FRONT
OF HIS HOUSE IN JERUSALEM, 1947


Jen Siraganian (she/her) is an Armenian-American writer, educator, and former poet laureate of Los Gatos, California. Her poetry has appeared in AGNI, Best New Poets 2016 and 2025, The Cincinnati Review, Electric Literature, Poetry Daily, Prairie Schooner, The Rumpus, the anthology Heaven Looks Like Us: Palestinian Poetry, and elsewhere, and she is a winner of the New Ohio Review Poetry Prize and The Writing Salon’s Jane Underwood Poetry Prize. She served as managing director of Litquake: San Francisco’s Literary Festival, and she is a Lucas Artist Fellow at the Montalvo Arts Center in Saratoga, California.

Ty Raso (she/they) is a trans character, poet, and teacher. Her work has shared space with POETRY, Electric Literature, The Adroit Journal, Foglifter Journal, The Offing, Black Warrior Review, and elsewhere. She feels most at home near rivers, and they were a 2023-2024 and 2025-2026 Poetry Fellow at the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center, and a 2025 Djanikian Scholar with The Adroit Journal. Her debut full-length collection, MIRROR WOULD BE A BEAUTIFUL NAME FOR A CHILD is forthcoming with Noemi Press in October 2027. You can find her on Instagram @spaghetti_utopia.


The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian


This feature, chosen by Guest Editor Ty Raso, is from Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian (Perugia Press 2026).

READING A BOOK OF ARMENIAN BABY NAMES
THE NIGHT BEFORE MY WATER BREAKS

Editor's Note: Given the formatting of this poem, they are best viewed as below in an uploaded PDF format.

Jen Siraganian (she/her) is an Armenian-American writer, educator, and former poet laureate of Los Gatos, California. Her poetry has appeared in AGNI, Best New Poets 2016 and 2025, The Cincinnati Review, Electric Literature, Poetry Daily, Prairie Schooner, The Rumpus, the anthology Heaven Looks Like Us: Palestinian Poetry, and elsewhere, and she is a winner of the New Ohio Review Poetry Prize and The Writing Salon’s Jane Underwood Poetry Prize. She served as managing director of Litquake: San Francisco’s Literary Festival, and she is a Lucas Artist Fellow at the Montalvo Arts Center in Saratoga, California.

Ty Raso (she/they) is a trans character, poet, and teacher. Her work has shared space with POETRY, Electric Literature, The Adroit Journal, Foglifter Journal, The Offing, Black Warrior Review, and elsewhere. She feels most at home near rivers, and they were a 2023-2024 and 2025-2026 Poetry Fellow at the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center, and a 2025 Djanikian Scholar with The Adroit Journal. Her debut full-length collection, MIRROR WOULD BE A BEAUTIFUL NAME FOR A CHILD is forthcoming with Noemi Press in October 2027. You can find her on Instagram @spaghetti_utopia.


The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian


This feature, chosen by Guest Editor Ty Raso, is from Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian (Perugia Press 2026).

WALKING INTO ST. JAMES CATHEDRAL
AS IF WE WERE ALREADY GHOSTS

Armenian Quarter, Jerusalem

inside  mosaics chant // lanterns half-tip  from
silver  chains  // incense  lifts  tin // a crowned
Jesus  blackened  from  smoke //  gold reflects
gold  // a  bearded  priest tells  my  father // to
uncross  his  legs  // we  leave  before the  final
prayer  // snake  along  walls of  peeled gray //
a  square  of  olive  trees  // the  cemetery  door
rusted  and  locked  // a  half-asleep  priest sits
nearby, his  legs  spread  to a  V //  he  says  the
cemetery  guard  is  away  //  my  father  points
to me  and  pleads // a  tarnished  key unveiled
// a  white  dog  follows  us //  his nose  tasting
sky // we can’t find my grandparents’ graves //
too  many  gravestones layered  with  shattered
platters // rows of black crosses // vines heavy
with  rotten grapes  and  chips  of  porcelain //
weeds  splinter  stone  //  everything  has been
moved // even  the  dead


Jen Siraganian (she/her) is an Armenian-American writer, educator, and former poet laureate of Los Gatos, California. Her poetry has appeared in AGNI, Best New Poets 2016 and 2025, The Cincinnati Review, Electric Literature, Poetry Daily, Prairie Schooner, The Rumpus, the anthology Heaven Looks Like Us: Palestinian Poetry, and elsewhere, and she is a winner of the New Ohio Review Poetry Prize and The Writing Salon’s Jane Underwood Poetry Prize. She served as managing director of Litquake: San Francisco’s Literary Festival, and she is a Lucas Artist Fellow at the Montalvo Arts Center in Saratoga, California.

Ty Raso (she/they) is a trans character, poet, and teacher. Her work has shared space with POETRY, Electric Literature, The Adroit Journal, Foglifter Journal, The Offing, Black Warrior Review, and elsewhere. She feels most at home near rivers, and they were a 2023-2024 and 2025-2026 Poetry Fellow at the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center, and a 2025 Djanikian Scholar with The Adroit Journal. Her debut full-length collection, MIRROR WOULD BE A BEAUTIFUL NAME FOR A CHILD is forthcoming with Noemi Press in October 2027. You can find her on Instagram @spaghetti_utopia.


The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian


This feature, chosen by Guest Editor Ty Raso, is from Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian (Perugia Press 2026).

THE LOUDEST SOUND IS THE ABSENCE OF A WORD

Editor's Note: Given the formatting of this poem, they are best viewed as below in an uploaded PDF format.

Jen Siraganian (she/her) is an Armenian-American writer, educator, and former poet laureate of Los Gatos, California. Her poetry has appeared in AGNI, Best New Poets 2016 and 2025, The Cincinnati Review, Electric Literature, Poetry Daily, Prairie Schooner, The Rumpus, the anthology Heaven Looks Like Us: Palestinian Poetry, and elsewhere, and she is a winner of the New Ohio Review Poetry Prize and The Writing Salon’s Jane Underwood Poetry Prize. She served as managing director of Litquake: San Francisco’s Literary Festival, and she is a Lucas Artist Fellow at the Montalvo Arts Center in Saratoga, California.

Ty Raso (she/they) is a trans character, poet, and teacher. Her work has shared space with POETRY, Electric Literature, The Adroit Journal, Foglifter Journal, The Offing, Black Warrior Review, and elsewhere. She feels most at home near rivers, and they were a 2023-2024 and 2025-2026 Poetry Fellow at the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center, and a 2025 Djanikian Scholar with The Adroit Journal. Her debut full-length collection, MIRROR WOULD BE A BEAUTIFUL NAME FOR A CHILD is forthcoming with Noemi Press in October 2027. You can find her on Instagram @spaghetti_utopia.


Sundress Reads: Review of Destroy Me, Desecrate My Bones

A line-art sheep wearing spectacles reads a book while drinking a mug holding a hot beverage next to the Sundress Reads Logo

Victoria Hood’s Destroy Me, Desecrate My Bones (Girl Noise Press, 2026) is a hybrid collection that shows how a build-up of unsettled yearning can break a person down. In a mix of grotesque, obsessive, and confessional voices, Hood’s writing pulls you deeper into the spiraling decay of being in love. Split into six sections, Destroy Me, Desecrate My Bones begins with trying to cling to love before the subsequent sections turn to consuming, reshaping, and surrendering to the damage. I focus on the first two sections, “To Contain” and “To Devour,” to track the transition from clinging to consuming.

What strikes me about the prose piece “I’m Sorry We’re Getting Married” in “To Contain” is that it is entirely about her, even if it obsessively focuses on their connection. We never hear Harry’s voice, yet by the end she seems to feel her questions have been answered, and she closes with “see you at the wedding in July.” I keep wondering how much time sits between her writing this and seeing him, and whether he ever hears any of it. The piece fixates on “I love you, Harry,” and nearly every time she says it, an insecurity or another thought about why it wouldn’t work follows. Reading it, I found myself asking: if you have to repeat it this many times, do you truly love him, or are you trying to prove to other people the marriage is right for the two of you? Each declaration reads to me like a battle over which matters more: the lover she holds close, or the people watching. Even so, the close, “I think I’ve answered my question,” feels like she’s trying to force an ending rather than letting it happen naturally.

“I want to feel you drip down me” in “To Devour” mixes intimacy and eroticism in the most grotesque way you can imagine. But then it turns from “I want” to “I don’t want,” and the tone shifts from erotic to haunting: the speaker wants to “clean off the world” from their partner “before you enter the house,” insists, “I don’t want you to die,” then wipes them down and licks them clean “before the sacrifice can begin.” It tips from kinky to ritualistic quickly, and the “sweet and sticky” substance in the beginning is called honey but reads as bodily, especially with “before your insides can come out.” Both readings, a kinky couple and a cannibalistic one, end up being about the same thing: being known by someone so completely that you consume them and hear thoughts you can’t normally. The impossibility of getting inside someone’s head is turned literal through the possessive care of stripping off shoes, clothes, and germs to keep their lover safe, but also isolating them from the rest of the world.

The prose in “How are you?” in “To Devour” is where the collection shifts; there is a stark volley between “The Girl” and “The Best Friend.” They think about the other often and reminisce about each other, yet neither says anything. It is the most poignant compared to the previous poems in the collection because it’s so relatable to friends drifting apart when both are going through difficult things at the same time. The line that resonates with this the most is when you hear The Girl’s interiority: “It is hard to do well when you are nervous that your wellness is not as important as someone else’s.” When one friend is doing better, and the other one is struggling, there are social scripts with clear roles to fall into. But when both care deeply despite their separate struggles, they can’t tell who fits which role, and the confusion can create more distance, as it does here. Even at this distance, the grotesque hasn’t left. “Neither of them wants to climb inside each other, they are both scared to bring up the insides” mirrors earlier poems that try to consume the person the speaker cares about. Here, the same imagery becomes emotional intimacy they can’t risk, so the merging of their bodies appears as a fear of being that close.

Reading Hood’s collection, I came away feeling that the search for love and connection never actually ends. It keeps pushing deeper until it can’t be contained, and the book’s sections follow that path from “To Contain” to “To Spill Over.” Her narratives are messy and grotesque, and refuse to be cleaned up neatly. Intimacy arises, fails, and sometimes succeeds, and the book treats all of it as love that needs to be honored because it is difficult and uncomfortable to face. Often the love isn’t even heard by the other person, and the poems suggest that being heard may not be the most important part of feeling connected. Even though Hood writes love as something that cannot be held in, I felt held by her work. It captures the weird, sad girls who cry over everything and never had a place to put those feelings. Now we can set them down in her collection.

Order your copy from Girl Noise Press today!


Emma Flores is an undergraduate student at Binghamton University studying English. They have a particular interest in researching human behavior and society through storytelling, with a focus on cultural narratives and folklore. In their free time, Emma can be found doing tarot readings, wandering bookstores, or hunting down spiritual shops for the next deck to add to their growing collection.

The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian


This feature, chosen by Guest Editor Ty Raso, is from Everything Has Been Moved, Even the Dead by Jen Siraganian (Perugia Press 2026).

TO THE PURPLE DYE INSERTED INTO MY UTERUS


Oh loveliness, tell me what you see—
which horizon hues open to you. What

I didn’t know I didn’t need to know
until now. Are my fallopian tubes

roller-coaster looped or sidewalk-slick?
Do you detect dangers there? I only

know what I’ve been told. Here
on my crackling paper bed, I am soothed

by our meeting through a screen. Like you,
I looked for home somewhere. Let’s see

each other eye to dye. Find the caves,
the linings. Seek that uncharted I never

explored in person. How lucky are you
to have a place to go. Send forth, tinsel-light

the highways, the potential paths. Announce,
This way, this way. We are all so blind.

The hollows swallow you. You thread through
like cracks in wood grain. Spiraling my lining alive.

I envy your mobility. Bloom my insides.
What doesn’t yet grow needs rich soil.

Uncloak what has yet to seed.


Jen Siraganian (she/her) is an Armenian-American writer, educator, and former poet laureate of Los Gatos, California. Her poetry has appeared in AGNI, Best New Poets 2016 and 2025, The Cincinnati Review, Electric Literature, Poetry Daily, Prairie Schooner, The Rumpus, the anthology Heaven Looks Like Us: Palestinian Poetry, and elsewhere, and she is a winner of the New Ohio Review Poetry Prize and The Writing Salon’s Jane Underwood Poetry Prize. She served as managing director of Litquake: San Francisco’s Literary Festival, and she is a Lucas Artist Fellow at the Montalvo Arts Center in Saratoga, California.

Ty Raso (she/they) is a trans character, poet, and teacher. Her work has shared space with POETRY, Electric Literature, The Adroit Journal, Foglifter Journal, The Offing, Black Warrior Review, and elsewhere. She feels most at home near rivers, and they were a 2023-2024 and 2025-2026 Poetry Fellow at the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center, and a 2025 Djanikian Scholar with The Adroit Journal. Her debut full-length collection, MIRROR WOULD BE A BEAUTIFUL NAME FOR A CHILD is forthcoming with Noemi Press in October 2027. You can find her on Instagram @spaghetti_utopia.


The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: they/she/he: ritual to forget your (un)becoming by dezireé a. brown


This feature, chosen by Guest Editor Ty Raso, is from they/she/he: ritual to forget your (un)becoming by dezireé a. brown (Host Publications 2025).

Level IV: Secret Level

Editors’ Note: Given the formatting of these poems, they are best viewed as below in an uploaded PDF format.



dr. dez brown (they/he), publishing as dezireé a. brown, is a Black queer nonbinary and transmasculine Pushcart Prize–nominated poet and interdisciplinary scholar, born and raised in Flint, MI. Their debut collection of poetry, they/she/he: ritual to forget your (un)becoming, was the winner of the Joe W. Bratcher Prize and a finalist for the 2026 Leslie Feinberg Award for Trans and Gender-Variant Literature. Often claiming to have been born with a poem written across his chest, he spends much of his time gaming and plays a mean hand of spades. Follow them online at @deziree.the.writer.

Ty Raso (she/they) is a trans character, poet, and teacher. Her work has shared space with POETRY, Electric Literature, The Adroit Journal, Foglifter Journal, The Offing, Black Warrior Review, and elsewhere. She feels most at home near rivers, and they were a 2023-2024 and 2025-2026 Poetry Fellow at the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center, and a 2025 Djanikian Scholar with The Adroit Journal. Her debut full-length collection, MIRROR WOULD BE A BEAUTIFUL NAME FOR A CHILD is forthcoming with Noemi Press in October 2027. You can find her on Instagram @spaghetti_utopia.