The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Apostasies by Holli Carrell

This selection, chosen by Guest Editor t.r. san, is from Apostasies by Holli Carrell (Perugia Press 2025).

THE QUESTION OF SHE

Did I meet Her or did I invent Her or did I copy Her or did I
inherit Her or did I earn Her or did I dream Her or did I
hallucinate Her or do I abandon Her or do I welcome Her or do I
punish Her or do I free Her or do I deserve Her or do I damn
Her or do I celebrate Her or do I blame Her or do I become Her?

Holli Carrell (she/they) was born and raised in Salt Lake City, Utah and now lives in the Midwest, where she recently completed her PhD in Creative Writing with a Graduate Certificate in Women’s, Gender, and Sexuality Studies at the University of Cincinnati. A 2024-2025 Taft Research Center Dissertation Fellow, her poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Gulf Coast, The North American Review, 32 Poems, Poetry Northwest, Ninth Letter, The Journal, Bennington Review, and Salt Hill, among other journals.

t.r. san is a poet and translator currently based on Gadigal land, with recent work found in minor literature[s], The Cincinnati Review, HAD, Smokelong Quarterly, The Offing, &c. read & reach @thoushallkill on Twitter, or trsan.neocities.org.