The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: If The Future Is A Fetish by Sarah Sgro

[MY BODY DIES THE MORE I USE IT]

my body dies the more I use it
so I use it often / there a tender

death wish / terrifying entrance /
when I panic it’s from choking

on three separate tongues / mine
my lover’s & a tired history

of loss / what I use my body for
today is running & a mediocre poem

which I use for therapy / it works
temporarily / any small re-entrance

is a sign of progress / writing down
the trauma for the first time is still

trauma / writing down the trauma
for the fifth time is still trauma but


at least I have a poem in my hands /
my lover is resilient / peeling back

a sleeve she shows me ghost incisions /
slice your skin & you’re no longer

in a poem or a metaphor / you are
here with a paperclip inside your wrist /

does the past decay the more I use it
in a poem / can I out-poem the past

from churning in my belly-pit / yes
the future is an enzyme & a catalyst

or a burp that smells like hotdogs
& a little like my grief / I hate that

stupid constant place which refuses
tense / longing too / greedily I suck

my lover’s upper lip looking for a poem
or I lick the balmy archive of my gut

with all three tongues / one says loss
one says loss one says I am not your tongue


This selection comes from the book, If The Future Is A Fetish, available from YesYes Books.  Purchase your copy here! Our curator for this selection is Kelly Lorraine Andrews.

Sarah Sgro is the author of the full-length collection If The Future Is A Fetish (YesYes Books 2019) and the chapbook Without Them I Am Still A Mother (Letter [r] Press 2017). Sgro earned her MFA in Poetry from the University of Mississippi and is pursuing her Ph.D. in English at SUNY Buffalo, where she studies waste in relation to gender and futurity. She previously served as Poetry Editor for the
Yalobusha Review and as an editorial assistant for Guernica, and she currently reads poetry submissions for Muzzle. Her work appears in BOAAT, Cosmonauts Avenue, The Offing, and other journals.

Kelly Lorraine Andrews is an assistant managing editor for the American Economic Association and an MFA graduate from the University of Pittsburgh. She is the author of the chapbooks Sonnets in Which the Speaker Is on Display (Stranded Oak Press, forthcoming 2019), The Fear Archives (Two of Cups Press, 2017), My Body Is a Poem I Can’t Stop Writing (Porkbelly Press, 2017), I Want To Eat So Many Kinds of Cake With You and Mule Skinner (both out from Dancing Girl Press). Her poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in [PANK], Prick of the Spindle, Ninth Letter, and elsewhere. You can read more about her past and future publications and look at a slideshow of her cats at her website.

 

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