Project Bookshelf: Rachel Mekdeci

My bookshelf is as eclectic as a thrift store quilt, with books and anthologies from every age and every style. It’s almost as if I learned my love of literature through trial and error, but I promise that is not the case. Truth be told, I am a harsh god to my bookshelf and am quick to throw out or gift away any book that does not intrigue me in the way I hoped. Here lie the survivors, the chosen few I continuously return to due to their lasting impacts on me as an academic, a woman, and a human.

Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen

In what world could I, this hopeless romantic, not include my leatherbound copy of Pride and Prejudice? The very first enemies-to-lovers left me hungry as a pre-teen watching Jennifer Ehle and Colin Firth. After taking an Austen class and rereading the novel with a more analytical eye, I opened more to its charms and quirks. I don’t care how much the movies remove from your personality, Darcy. You’re still my number one book crush.

The Prophet – Khalil Gibran

A book of 26 different poetic fables written by Lebanese-American Khalil Gibran. I am a woman of Lebanese descent who grew up in the Caribbean and immigrated to the US. Gibran’s poetry spoke so many impossible truths to this patchwork woman. The themes surrounding religion, life, and the human condition roused something pure in me that I thought I had once lost. Everyone deserves to read this book. Everyone.

Affrilachia – Frank X. Walker

The very same man who coined the term ‘Affrilachia’ in order to remove the stereotypical view of Appalachia wrote a poetry collection 9 years later. This collection was handed to me in an Appalachian Literature class, fresh off of reading some gory McCarthy, and I dove right in. This anthology is a testament to Black creatives in the region and their true lived experience. As a non-Black reader, most poems were clearly not meant for me but still left lasting impacts. I cannot recommend Affrilachia enough.

Voices of Cherokee Women – Edited by Carolyn Ross Johnston

Something that still strikes me as odd today is the difference between the treatment of Natives in America versus my home country. In Guyana, the Native population is revered and cared for. There are still a great many remote tribes living in the thick of the Amazon and they do so happily. Imagine my shock as I moved here and saw the polar opposite. This compilation of true Cherokee voices aided my understanding of the treatment of Native peoples, especially as I read it in my apartment on stolen Cherokee land.

Roots, Branches, and Spirits: The Folkways and Witchery of Appalachia – H. Byron Ballard

This book is a little out of left field, I know, but it is a core tenet of my bookshelf. As an immigrant, I had to leave a large part of my witchcraft behind in my hometown and learn the practice anew in an unfamiliar place. Ballard’s knowledge combines with Southern charm to teach both the history and modern practices of witchcraft in Appalachia.

Under the Skin – Linda Villarosa

If there is any book you pick up from my bookshelf, let it be this. Villarosa explores the connections between race, gender, and medicine through a non-medical lens that any reader can digest. As heartbreaking of a read as this may be, trust Villarosa to back up any and all claims with necessary evidence and historical context. Despite being painfully aware of the yawning maw of systemic racism in this country, Under the Skin introduces yet another way to be angry.


Rachel Mekdeci (she/her) is a foul-mouthed, mixed-race, Caribbean-immigrant Taurus with a bleeding heart passionate for the arts. As an undergraduate Literature student at the University of Tennessee, she takes every opportunity to write about queer literature and intersectional feminism. Her number one mission in life is to further the reach of the arts and maybe own a house?

Meet Our New Intern: Rachel Mekdeci

Author of this blog, Rachel, wearing a pink mask and a purple bandana with one raised fist and the other hand painted red while carrying a banner. Behind her, there is a sign that says 'Free Palestine.'

The first time I was ever a spiteful feminist was at the ripe age of 6, rushing to the water fountain after a taxing round of tag. Like all school girls are wont to do, we had been screaming with delight. A teacher rounded the corner and stuck up her nose at me. She pointed a finger at my eyes and said “Young ladies must be seen and not heard.” Reader, I have no explanation for what left my mouth next. I do not know how that little girl knew just what to say in that moment. All I know is that I said the next thing that came to my head: “Thank God I’m not a lady.”

It’s a funny story, one that I love to tell to unwilling houseguests. When a new friend finally asks “Rachel, what radicalized you?”, I tell them it was a game of tag. That isn’t true. What radicalized me was a history class. It was learning about dowries. It was watching movies. It was that black hole that opened in my stomach in 2015 when the newspaper headlines said there was oil miles off of the beach in front of my home. The tag story is a sweeter pill to swallow.

It was my very own radicalization that led to my hunger for knowledge. Once I could connect the dots, that star of capitalism and the constellation of its damage, I had to know more. I turned to the greats, hooks and Lorde and Butler and Spillers, and prayed over their words. After discovering my own queerness in my childhood, these essays soothed aching wounds yet ripped open some new. I knew I wanted to fix this ugly system, but I didn’t know how. It took many years of soul-searching and wrong choices to discover the best way for me to heal this world. I landed on a simple philosophy. I must learn in order to share.

Knowledge is power, yes, but because you then have the power to disseminate it. I must pour over these words, fiction and fact, so I can carry it forward. This is how I have ended up where I am now: determined senior in English Lit fighting tooth and nail to get accepted to a grad school where I can study queer literature (with an intersectional lens!) to my heart’s content. I dream of ‘Dr.’ attached to my last name, a comfortable office, and classrooms full of minds that need some learning. That is the legacy I want to leave.

I know this is not the usual thing one discusses when asked to introduce themselves, but I could not find a way around it. This, all of this, is who I am. I am a thinker before I am anything else, and I cannot help but to think of the state of the world. If I did nothing, I don’t think I could survive. This is how I do something, as little or huge of a change it might leave.

You’ve now met one of the new interns, but not really. I have written a great deal about one singular facet of my life. I am pleased to report that I am, in fact, a well-rounded individual with many hobbies, favorite foods, and a great deal of dislikes. That is not important. One thing about me is that I view every single moment as an opportunity to learn something new. I wanted this post to help somebody learn. I hope that you have learned one thing above all else:

Don’t do nothing. Please do something.


Rachel Mekdeci (she/her) is a foul-mouthed, mixed-race, Caribbean-immigrant Taurus with a bleeding heart passionate for the arts. As an undergraduate Literature student at the University of Tennessee, she takes every opportunity to write about queer literature and intersectional feminism. Her number one mission in life is to further the reach of the arts and maybe own a house?