The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Look Look Look by Callista Buchen

Threshold


How she measures the days and their small bodies against her own. The child curled
against her arm, against her ribs, the toddler on her chest. Everyone is breathing. She
builds her body into home, into refuge, tries to fall into the moment like a well.

Her body is a fortress. Her body is a monument. She wants to say, but where is the
original map? But where have we buried my body?
You can’t ask this of children. She
grows stiff, tries to hold them until she becomes a door, and they all walk through.

This selection comes from the book, Look Look Look, available from Black Lawrence Press.  Purchase your copy here! Our curator for this selection is Colleen Abel.

Callista Buchen holds an MA from the University of Oregon, an MFA from Bowling Green State University, and a PhD from the University of Kansas. She is an assistant professor at Franklin College in Indiana, where she directs the creative writing program, advising the student literary magazine, The Apogee, and curating the visiting writers reading series.

The winner of DIAGRAM’s essay contest and the Lawrence Arts Center’s Langston Hughes Award, she is the author of the full-length collection Look Look Look (Black Lawrence Press, October 2019), the chapbooks The Bloody Planet (Black Lawrence Press, October 2015) and Double-Mouthed (dancing girl press, October 2017). Her poetry appears in Harpur Palate, Puerto del Sol, Fourteen Hills, Salamander, and others, while her reviews have been published in journals like Prick of the Spindle, The Literary Review, and The Collagist. She also writes frequently with the poet Amy Ash. Their collaborative work has appeared in journals like BOOAT and Poetry South, as well as been featured in the Inflectionist Review and in They Said: A Multi-Genre Anthology of Contemporary Collaborative Writing.

Colleen Abel is a Chicago-area native. Her debut collection of poems, Remake, won the 2015 Editors Prize from Unicorn Press and was published in 2017. She is also the author of two chapbooks, Housewifery (dancing girl press, 2013) and Deviants, which won Sundress Publications’ 2016 Chapbook Prize. A former Diane Middlebrook Poetry Fellow at UW-Madison’s Institute for Creative Writing, as well as a recent Tulsa Artist Fellow (2017-2018), Abel has also held fellowships from the Ragdale Foundation, the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, Vermont Studio Center, KHN Center for the Arts, and Wassard Elea in southern Italy. She currently teaches at Eastern Illinois University.

The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Look Look Look by Callista Buchen

Flashes


I hammer and turn, and everything I touch goes glass.

A mountain made of houses, all the walls and doors.

You don’t know what to say.

My mother watches. My father watches.

Where else would you go?

Someone imagines climbing through a window.

A whole forest of parents, a brickyard of parents.

I can’t, I say. I can’t.

Whispers: lie down with the baby. Map the baby. Build the baby.

I find sharp edges. I make sharp edges.

You wrap up in arms.

This selection comes from the book, Look Look Look, available from Black Lawrence Press.  Purchase your copy here! Our curator for this selection is Colleen Abel.

Callista Buchen holds an MA from the University of Oregon, an MFA from Bowling Green State University, and a PhD from the University of Kansas. She is an assistant professor at Franklin College in Indiana, where she directs the creative writing program, advising the student literary magazine, The Apogee, and curating the visiting writers reading series.

The winner of DIAGRAM’s essay contest and the Lawrence Arts Center’s Langston Hughes Award, she is the author of the full-length collection Look Look Look (Black Lawrence Press, October 2019), the chapbooks The Bloody Planet (Black Lawrence Press, October 2015) and Double-Mouthed (dancing girl press, October 2017). Her poetry appears in Harpur Palate, Puerto del Sol, Fourteen Hills, Salamander, and others, while her reviews have been published in journals like Prick of the Spindle, The Literary Review, and The Collagist. She also writes frequently with the poet Amy Ash. Their collaborative work has appeared in journals like BOOAT and Poetry South, as well as been featured in the Inflectionist Review and in They Said: A Multi-Genre Anthology of Contemporary Collaborative Writing.

Colleen Abel is a Chicago-area native. Her debut collection of poems, Remake, won the 2015 Editors Prize from Unicorn Press and was published in 2017. She is also the author of two chapbooks, Housewifery (dancing girl press, 2013) and Deviants, which won Sundress Publications’ 2016 Chapbook Prize. A former Diane Middlebrook Poetry Fellow at UW-Madison’s Institute for Creative Writing, as well as a recent Tulsa Artist Fellow (2017-2018), Abel has also held fellowships from the Ragdale Foundation, the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, Vermont Studio Center, KHN Center for the Arts, and Wassard Elea in southern Italy. She currently teaches at Eastern Illinois University.

The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Look Look Look by Callista Buchen

Quick Change


She keeps her body around the house. There is body in the coat closet in the hall by the
front door, body under the bed in plastic bins, a pile in the garage by the recycling bin.
The spares, she calls them. She misplaces her body like she loses her keys. She releases
it, lets her body carry her from this room to that, lets her body stretch until it must be
replaced. It is better this way, she says, slipping into a fresh one as the baby cries. I never have to worry about being recognized.

This selection comes from the book, Look Look Look, available from Black Lawrence Press.  Purchase your copy here! Our curator for this selection is Colleen Abel.

Callista Buchen holds an MA from the University of Oregon, an MFA from Bowling Green State University, and a PhD from the University of Kansas. She is an assistant professor at Franklin College in Indiana, where she directs the creative writing program, advising the student literary magazine, The Apogee, and curating the visiting writers reading series.

The winner of DIAGRAM’s essay contest and the Lawrence Arts Center’s Langston Hughes Award, she is the author of the full-length collection Look Look Look (Black Lawrence Press, October 2019), the chapbooks The Bloody Planet (Black Lawrence Press, October 2015) and Double-Mouthed (dancing girl press, October 2017). Her poetry appears in Harpur Palate, Puerto del Sol, Fourteen Hills, Salamander, and others, while her reviews have been published in journals like Prick of the Spindle, The Literary Review, and The Collagist. She also writes frequently with the poet Amy Ash. Their collaborative work has appeared in journals like BOOAT and Poetry South, as well as been featured in the Inflectionist Review and in They Said: A Multi-Genre Anthology of Contemporary Collaborative Writing.

Colleen Abel is a Chicago-area native. Her debut collection of poems, Remake, won the 2015 Editors Prize from Unicorn Press and was published in 2017. She is also the author of two chapbooks, Housewifery (dancing girl press, 2013) and Deviants, which won Sundress Publications’ 2016 Chapbook Prize. A former Diane Middlebrook Poetry Fellow at UW-Madison’s Institute for Creative Writing, as well as a recent Tulsa Artist Fellow (2017-2018), Abel has also held fellowships from the Ragdale Foundation, the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, Vermont Studio Center, KHN Center for the Arts, and Wassard Elea in southern Italy. She currently teaches at Eastern Illinois University.

The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Look Look Look by Callista Buchen

Look Look Look


At first, we think we need to wash the windows, but the problem is that they all have
broken seals. Moisture grows between panels. It is easy, they say on the phone. You just
replace each window with a new one.
Later, I read that the cells of children move through the placenta, latch on to the mother’s
lungs, liver, brain, her skin. The daughter’s cells, the cells of the new baby, the cells of
the baby that was lost. All the people of this body. A fissure leads to fog.
We squint when we try to watch the birds in the garden. The daughter doesn’t care. She
lifts her shirt and points to her navel and I tell her, this is where we were attached.
The knot on her belly.
The knot on my belly.
The knot on my mother’s belly.
After the baby comes out, she wants to know, can she have another turn. Then she’s back
to the window, pointing to what flies

This selection comes from the book, Look Look Look, available from Black Lawrence Press.  Purchase your copy here! Our curator for this selection is Colleen Abel.

Callista Buchen holds an MA from the University of Oregon, an MFA from Bowling Green State University, and a PhD from the University of Kansas. She is an assistant professor at Franklin College in Indiana, where she directs the creative writing program, advising the student literary magazine, The Apogee, and curating the visiting writers reading series.

The winner of DIAGRAM’s essay contest and the Lawrence Arts Center’s Langston Hughes Award, she is the author of the full-length collection Look Look Look (Black Lawrence Press, October 2019), the chapbooks The Bloody Planet (Black Lawrence Press, October 2015) and Double-Mouthed (dancing girl press, October 2017). Her poetry appears in Harpur Palate, Puerto del Sol, Fourteen Hills, Salamander, and others, while her reviews have been published in journals like Prick of the Spindle, The Literary Review, and The Collagist. She also writes frequently with the poet Amy Ash. Their collaborative work has appeared in journals like BOOAT and Poetry South, as well as been featured in the Inflectionist Review and in They Said: A Multi-Genre Anthology of Contemporary Collaborative Writing.

Colleen Abel is a Chicago-area native. Her debut collection of poems, Remake, won the 2015 Editors Prize from Unicorn Press and was published in 2017. She is also the author of two chapbooks, Housewifery (dancing girl press, 2013) and Deviants, which won Sundress Publications’ 2016 Chapbook Prize. A former Diane Middlebrook Poetry Fellow at UW-Madison’s Institute for Creative Writing, as well as a recent Tulsa Artist Fellow (2017-2018), Abel has also held fellowships from the Ragdale Foundation, the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, Vermont Studio Center, KHN Center for the Arts, and Wassard Elea in southern Italy. She currently teaches at Eastern Illinois University.

The Wardrobe’s Best Dressed: Look Look Look by Callista Buchen

Metaphysics

Our most ambitious work: mother as birthplace, where woman becomes location.
Someone singing: rejoice! A body in service, a graft here, a graft there.
Call and response: how she (nearly) disappears inside ritual and imprint.
Let’s situate: Where were you born?
In a (nearly) different life, the child stands between her parents: a record, a stain, a
photograph of the future.
Contextualize: There, says the child, pointing toward her mother, home.
Later, how (nearly) altered: child becomes mother, the X on a map.
Call and response: why didn’t you warn me?
A prayer: but who would believe it? says the mother, and turns on the music.

This selection comes from the book, Look Look Look, available from Black Lawrence Press.  Purchase your copy here! Our curator for this selection is Colleen Abel.

Callista Buchen holds an MA from the University of Oregon, an MFA from Bowling Green State University, and a PhD from the University of Kansas. She is an assistant professor at Franklin College in Indiana, where she directs the creative writing program, advising the student literary magazine, The Apogee, and curating the visiting writers reading series.

The winner of DIAGRAM’s essay contest and the Lawrence Arts Center’s Langston Hughes Award, she is the author of the full-length collection Look Look Look (Black Lawrence Press, October 2019), the chapbooks The Bloody Planet (Black Lawrence Press, October 2015) and Double-Mouthed (dancing girl press, October 2017). Her poetry appears in Harpur Palate, Puerto del Sol, Fourteen Hills, Salamander, and others, while her reviews have been published in journals like Prick of the Spindle, The Literary Review, and The Collagist. She also writes frequently with the poet Amy Ash. Their collaborative work has appeared in journals like BOOAT and Poetry South, as well as been featured in the Inflectionist Review and in They Said: A Multi-Genre Anthology of Contemporary Collaborative Writing.

Colleen Abel is a Chicago-area native. Her debut collection of poems, Remake, won the 2015 Editors Prize from Unicorn Press and was published in 2017. She is also the author of two chapbooks, Housewifery (dancing girl press, 2013) and Deviants, which won Sundress Publications’ 2016 Chapbook Prize. A former Diane Middlebrook Poetry Fellow at UW-Madison’s Institute for Creative Writing, as well as a recent Tulsa Artist Fellow (2017-2018), Abel has also held fellowships from the Ragdale Foundation, the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, Vermont Studio Center, KHN Center for the Arts, and Wassard Elea in southern Italy. She currently teaches at Eastern Illinois University.